On a bench in the garden

On a bench in the garden

The birds trace 

a silver line around 

my existential dread 


And the past returns

kaleidoscopically:

fragments of chaos

revolving inside my head


My paperweight heart

counts each one and

pins them down 

like a diary note


On a bench in the garden 

I wished the sun 

could melt trauma 

like it melt the snow 

Covid crows

They’ve been here all year:

a constant omen

in the wake of contagion

Plagued by the heat of a summer morning

I awoke and watched their offspring

gurgle and scream

from the chestnut tree;

abandoned between its branches

Now through winter’s lockdown

I pass them by

as their coal-black, cawing bodies

heave with each cry

and mock my solitary footsteps all the while

Today the guardians of Burgess park

gather ceremoniously

next to a trampled mask

for another socially-distanced murder

Spectators

Silver leaves line

the road I travel through

Cherry blossom trees

Too fragile and fearful to bloom

Storm clouds gather ahead

and a crack of blue sky appears

The birds of the air feel its heaviness

And scatter as it nears

In this bleak city

We entertain thoughts of mortality

Misplaced and displaced

Spectators of our own calamity