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The Meaning of Light

I stand

Looking from the outside in

“Do not be a part of the world”

They said             it’s full of sin

Little do they know

 

I am

The planet orbiting their star

And every degree travelled

Brings me to where you are

 

But the problem is not me,

The problem is you.

Through each motion

There casts a clearer point of view:

 

To see quite perfectly

Where lies dust

From where lies dirt;

That from whence came meaning

Is not of death

But of birth

 

So that in all things

I will not give up the fight,

Until you can convince me

That what I’m orbiting is light

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Savage Beauty

Why so savage

A beauty as this

Cast within concrete

Frames?

 

Harsh grey walls

Object and conceal

The soft poetic soul

The dimmer light reveals

 

As she slips

Into silence once again;

A scream that is louder

Than the tones

Of angry men

 

Who by their power

Ordained clothe her

In dark matter too heavy

For Innocence to feign

 

So that she tries

To hide under its weight

Until no one can see

 

The savage beauty

That is only beautiful

To you and me

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Inside The Mirror

Nothing can hold me back

From this life

Even when times are tough

I’ll carry on despite

With no respite

Thinking of you in mind

And wondering

Is it worth my time

When you said:

“Don’t stop believing… ever”

As you made the cord

Between us sever

And end a life long history

Of memories together

But this is now or never

It’s all or nothing

And yet I see nothing at all;

Standing inside the mirror

Reveals the writing on the wall

And shoulders that are heavy

From heaving this burden;

My back will only break

Once they close the curtain…

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The Final Sleep

I will weep over your sheets

Once you are gone;

Let my conscience stumble

And refuse to carry on

 

Clothe your memory in wreaths…

Oh the bitter ache that it leaves!

As you dissolve into a foreign land

And I’m left struggling to understand

 

And wander aimlessly, following Grief

Down every street; confused

As to her direction

That guides the path of my feet

 

Until my tears

Like ocean waves swelling

Can contain themselves no longer

And pouring forth from my eyes

Like your soul’s last dying cry

 

That leaves me haunted every time…

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Refract Your Heart

Buried treasure

Metres deep

Your heart is an ocean

Of secrets you keep

 

Away from me

Like a hand of cards;

The hand you deal

Cuts like glass

 

And I am the shard

Scattered and broken

In your mind

But to uncover the rainbow

You must refract the light

 

So hold me up to your rays

And I will make your path alter;

As long as the rupture’s welcomed

The rapture won’t falter…

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History of Lovers

You’ve locked me

Into your embrace again;

I’m Daniel in the lion’s den.

 

Just as I was a stone’s throw away

From throwing us away

You opened up your arms of love

And begged me to stay

 

Was it a lifeline

Or a noose with which

To hang my neck?

Are we on board this ship

Or just a sinking wreck?

 

Because this sinking

Started long ago

I chose to hold on

As the miraculous survivor;

Looked upon our love

And tried to revive her

 

When all that remained

Were fragments of disarray:

A history of lovers,

Unwilling to leave

And yet unwilling to stay.

 

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La Petite Mort

Crossing familiar territory

One inch at a time

To feel your pulse throbbing

And the delicate nodules

Of your spine

 

Still supple

Still as smooth as a peach

Your wingspan opened up

But not out of reach

 

To fly the distance

We didn’t dare to cover

Instead chased love away

Looking to the affections of another

 

Lying together now:

Head to head, toe to toe, arm in arm

The storm is over

Time to embrace the calm

 

Breathe in my love and

Exhale the past

Our vows, they were broken

Before they had chance to last

 

Accept human fragility

And Time’s loss wasting away

Lay with me again

And we will die to live another day

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Ode to the Sun

1

Sun,

Shining in your most reverent sky

Now I know why

Men have come to adore you

 

2

As you start rising

Lovers lay sighing

Feeling your warmth

Between their sheets

 

3

The treachery of morning

That follows the night

Fades away once you’re in sight

And the world becomes new again

 

4

Basking in your splendorous rays

Is where I want to be

To catch even a glimpse of you

Is satisfaction guaranteed

 

5

To see you light up a prairie

Where barley glistens gold

I could watch you all day long;

It never gets old…

 

6

All I want is to turn as dark

As the dust of the Earth;

Reverse original sin

Return to original birth

 

7

Colour me cocoa

As brown as the bean

Turn my face away

From white supremacy

 

8

Shine your light on me

And illumine my mind

Keep me within safe reach;

Protect me from the night

 

9

Fill me with the joy

Of the labourers’ song;

Under your supervision

They work all day long

 

10

Share your particles of gaiety

And you will see

This wondrous world

Looks not as bad as it seems!

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Betrayal

Betrayal

An imminent cloud of smoke

Rising from a fire on a hill:

Distant enough to arouse suspicion

Close enough to make ill-will its mission

 

And yet we are foolish

Enough to listen

As the embers crackle and die

Not perceiving

That very same fire

Still burning in our eyes

 

As we turn to others

To give them the murderous kiss

We have received

The black shadow of Death

Marks a stain as it leaves

 

Not once. Not twice,

Nor even thrice.

Betrayal is imminent,

An ordinary part of life

 

Where men turn their crosses

Upside down;

No longer a symbol of love

But a symbol of hate

“INRI, what became of your

Righteous crown?”

 

“Hidden, hidden away

Behind sorry veils

By those that believed

Their transgressions

Had brought them beyond the pale”

Cried He.

 

But even now

The bitter taste of betrayal

Like a soured wine

Fulfilled a prophecy

That would stand the test of time.

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Purgatorial Love

Placed in purgatory

I created a world

Undeniably mine

Fit to foster all my

Aspects that collide

 

Looking inward

Like concave mirror reflections

I saw an apparition of my soul

With neither love nor affection;

I became a shadow

That fleets and deceives

Standing under the light that perceives

 

But now days bleed

And I let myself sink

Into your world

Where rising sorrows

Entwine and unfurl

And I become lost again.