It seems you have become the vital ingredient

To the mixture of my life;

Without you there is neither colour nor perfection

And I struggle to remember what it feels like to be alive

 

For when you are with me, you fulfil me

The picture is whole again

Yet you don’t realise that behind these brown eyes,

Ulterior motives doth lie

 

I never meant to be secretive,

Harbouring mal intent to cut you down

I never wanted you to second-guess me,

With heavy interrogatives furrowing

Deep into your brow

 

It is just that I love you, truly and deeply

I always hope and wish that somehow you would accept me

 

Yet that is a step I am unwilling to take;

Its execution would be murderous,

Undoing the brilliant friendship

That we have made

 

And so the story stays the same;

Loving women is always part of the game,

Losing them is what I most fear,

In solitude I shed a tear,

For it is always them that

I want to draw near